So monday has come and gone. and I never got to see the magic show. I got really sick this weekend. so sick that my boss sent me home early from work on monday.
There are some devolpments in my "Charlie" thing. I started get a little nervous with all the serious talk. so I asked him to put us on the same page. of course I am not very smooth about it and if it had been anyone else they would have had no clue it went some thing like this:
Me: I have a question for you
Me: Well some of things you have said recently.... well... i just..... you see.... I wanted to know.... I just want to make sure we are the same page.... and well... I just... You see... (some incoherent babling)
Charlie: you want to know How I feel about you and where we stand.
Charlie: well... I like you alot, your honest and straight-forward and that is so refreshing......(long pause) well you know i'm not ready to be serious yet and I want to date some people and see if I can't figure out what I really want.... I'm kind of seeing this other girl -(my hearing shuts down)
He goes on to tell me how he's know her for a long time and they are friends blah blah blah. and suddenly I have an epiphany. All the time he has been staying out late "gambling" has proably just been a ruse to keep me from being hurt that he is dating other people.
Why is this a problem, you ask. well I think that subconciously he gets that I really like him. and he doesn't want to hurt me. which is cool, but the fact that he hides it hurts me more. strange I know. I am after all a little bit jealous. he makes time for other women, but not for me. Yet he tells me that we will go out again. So now I'm all confused.
Then he hits me with the other big news. His ex-wife wants him to take her back, and he is considering it.
hold on I need a moment......
Ok I can handle this. I think.
This Great Guy wants to take back the psycho nut job that broke his heart. Yeah ok. he needs more work. So for now I am just going to continue the phone convos and hopefully he'll actually want to see me again, not just read me some lip service....
Here is a teaser for the next blog:
The many sites I am on and how they fare.
*names have been changed to protect the innocent, the a**holes and the clueless.