Friday, September 11, 2009

How the hell did I end up here?

Sooooo it seems like I haven't made a real post in a while... I guess I should catch you all up real quick...

Went on lots of dates
Met lots of D-bags
Did a lot of things
Dealt with lots of drama

Now in all my dating I came across a guy that I call DeveloperD. He's smart, funny, single... and AMAZING in the sack. Mind blowing really.... He's been spectacular. There is just one problem. A few weeks ago I found myself starting to fall for him... from the very beginning he's been honest about not wanting to get into anything serious. I thought I was ok with that... until I found myself falling for him....

Originally the plan was to back off and just be friends. No more physical intimacy. That would haven been ok. I could have done that easily if not for one thing. He is the most amazing lover. HOLY SHIT just thinking about what he does to me makes me weak in the knees.

Now being the very weak (extremely horny) person I am I gave in to my carnal desires and have gone back to sleeping with him. OMG its amazing.

Now I find myself in a place I never thought I would be. I am dating and sleeping with a guy that I know will never be permanent. I happen to know that he is seeing two other women. It just happens that I am personally acquainted with one of them. I laid down some very specific rules for him. The number one being that I would NEVER be the "sloppy second". He has been very good at that one.

Now I figured that since he was honest with me, he would be honest with the other two as well. I am very careful when I spend the night to remove every trace of me. Except for the left overs (I cook when I stay over) you would never know that I was there. Now I was hoping for the same courtesy from the other two.... somehow I think that they aren't as courteous as I am.

The other day as I was preparing to take a shower at DeveloperD's I was laying my stuff out on the bed. There was some recently washed clothes sitting on the bed... among them... a pair of womens panties. sigh.... can you believe that?? One of those stupid bitches left her panties. this is just one of the reasons I don't wear panties. now I am just as pissed that Mr. DeveloperD left them out for me to see. I do take comfort that they are not very sexy, oh they tried but failed miserably. At least when I wear panties they are SEXY... I do mean sexy...

Now I'm wondering if I should talk to the woman I know... tell her its not cool. that if we are all going to be doing this we need to be courteous to one another. Or maybe I should just fight fire with fire... or maybe... just maybe I should let it go. After all I did know what I was getting into when I decided to continue seeing him....

*names have been changed to protect the innocent, the a**holes and the clueless.

3 comments:

Anonymous said...

what does your son do while your out with these guys.....you never say anything about him just wondering how hes doing

Poetry Sue said...

seeing as how I'm only seeing one guy right now its actually very simple. I'm very lucky to have a "baby-daddy" that loves his kid and spending time with him. Usually My son will spend my date nights with his dad...

~Jennifer~ said...

I think it depends on what you want in the long run. I fell for a guy who wasn't looking for anything serious. I backed off and stopped dating/sleeping with him. He almost immediately changed his tune and we've been married 4 years. Of course, that probably doesn't usually happen. I didn't think it would. No matter how much I liked him, I wanted to find someone and get married. Since he wasn't into it, I gave him up. Even if he hadn't changed his mind, I still think leaving was the best decision. For me.